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If YOU Wanna Be Happy – BE!

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Happiness.. I would say it is the most popular word that is tipped in the Google search these days. There are so many articles, books, seminars, videos, songs created to help people to be happy, to teach us how to create happiness around and within us. I used to belong to that significant number of people who are reading, watching, listening and trying to understand what happiness is, how to be happy and fulfilled.

Finally I realized within myself, that I don’t need to have reason to be happy. I don’t need think what I suppose to be happy about, when I wake up every morning, I realized that I just want to be happy and I can be happy!

Now I am happy listening Italian music, songs that are full of passion, passion of life, full of positive energy to take deep breaths and enjoy every second of my life. Music is something wonderful, something that lifts me up above the clouds, sets me free from everything  surrounding me and makes me feel full of happiness, small joys and most important – music inspires me to be just who I am, without hiding anything without acting.

I am in love with myself, in love with the world I live in, the nature I belong to, and the humans I am surrounded with. This is exactly what creates happiness for me. To wake up in the morning and feel sun kissing my cheeks, to hear variety of noises which says that world is alive and I belong to it. To hear rain drops hitting my window and quickly trickling down one after another trying to race which will be the first one who will reach the finish line. To watch the sunset, sign of another beautiful day drowning into darkness and inviting to dance with the stars there,  in the infinite galaxy.

It took me a long time to realize that I don’t need to tell myself why I should be happy, to make a list of things, actions, people who I should feel happy about, but after a long time searching within myself to find out the answer and be happy I finally did it and I am more than happy to know it. I am wonderfully happy to be able to smile for no reason, to enjoy everything, to sing a song in my heart.

I wish everyone who is desperately flipping pages, replaying videos, visiting varieties of seminars, looking for an answer to the simple question ‘’How to be happy’’, one morning will wake up and realize that the answer is very simple: IF YOU WANNA BE HAPPY – BE!

 

…Marshmalow23

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Fear to step out of my comfort zone

Fear, what exactly is it? The major thing that stops us and locks us in the comfort zone. I was always afraid to step out of my comfort zone until one day I realized I could not live like that anymore, or should I say exist, because at that time I wasn’t living, I was only existing human being. I didn’t enjoy my life; everyday’s routine was eating me from the inside like a worm, slowly and painfully. I knew I have to change something because I was thirsty of feelings that I am living again, experiencing new emotions, meeting new people, learning new culture. After being stuck in the small Irish town for the last 6 years my heart and my mind were begging me to change surroundings, change the place and the way of living. To work in the same place, walk in the same streets, see the same faces everyday was just too much for me emotionally and the most difficult part of this was to meet people who i used to know, people who meant so much to me but they weren’t a part of my life anymore and I have no choice because every corner, of the street, little coffee shop, park, everything kept some kind of memories that I didn’t want to come back to again and the town was too small not to meet them in the supermarkets, shops or bars.

I could say I grew up in this town. I spend most important teenage years of my life in there, I met my first love, my current friends, my heart was broken so many times in that town, and to stay living in there wasn’t something that I wanted to do anymore.

I decided to leave everything behind and go abroad, to visit another country, get to know new culture, meet new people, and create different me. This was my decision which I came up with after a long time deeply thinking if this is really what I want and what I need. It was difficult to say YES, but my heart started beating faster when I was thinking about new life, different life and even though it was scary, I knew – this was exactly what I had to do, to step out of my comfort zone and go, experience, feel, LIVE!

I can say that I am strong person, but at the same time, I am a human being and it is  a good idea to have a backup plan just to feel a little bit safer while stepping into different living and culture, so my backup plan was to keep my job current job (which I was working for the last 4 years) and try to get transferred to some other country. This my plan have worked very well and sooner than a week I got a job position offer in the beautiful, economically strong, full of opportunities Berlin city.

Of course without at least one doubt my answer was ‘’yes, I am in when can I start?’’ after this everything was very excited, but at the same time I felt the fear, which was stopping me, making me think again, again and over again, maybe to change my mind and stay where I am, because it is going to be complicated to adopt in the culture, to be on my own without my family, my friends and maybe I am not strong enough to handle it. These different thoughts were protesting inside my head but people close to me were there for me, everyone was supporting me and that helped out a lot. It was amazing to feel all that support, good energy and that they believed in me. This pushed me forward to make this step.  It took me few weeks to have everything ready with my job and slowly but finally that day came, the day when I said goodbye to my friends, my colleagues, my family and that day my mind and my heart were empty of disappointments, everyday’s routine and fulfilled with excitement, to discover my new life. My mind and my heart were ready for the new adventure where were only me, who came here to create new herself and people who doesn’t know who I am!